A love poem

With all of my love felling that you dont know anything about it ...i wrote to you this poem...i does not forget you...and till i dei i will remember you...you my first and the last big love...in my dreams i always see you happy lughing and talking to me...because i never meet you in real...because you left me and desapeard...as my happiness and big hopes gone ...i never going to see you again but i will never forget you..mother i loved you with my all heart and i loved him...you gone and lefted me the day you deid and he gone too with his love far away from me...and am alone talking to my self and writing my poem and the tears in my eyes and the saddness fill my self and the pain tears my heart...god why it is so hard to loos the dear people ? why ther must be a good bey in the life...why ther must be all this mesary and no happiness? i worte this words and ather...because i could not say a good bye...because it is heart too much...to forget...i will keep on saying again ..i love you...and i will keep on saying that always and for ever...but would that make a diffrent..would you come back to me and my happiness turn to me..i asked in my dream to my mother..and i told her about my big love...and she answerd me that he is going to leav...i cryed and cryed...between your arms mother ...becaus it never going to be on real to hold you in my arms and wisper to you my love..as will i can not cry in arms of my love and till him what life have done to me...what can i do..? more than i cry and getting teird then and sleep to dream about you and about him again.